A pleasant phenomenon

[figmo]

This past weekend something wonderful happened. Actually, it's been slowly happening, but this past weekend was when I noticed it.

For the first time in ages, I'm enjoying making music. It clunked me on the head when I did my "twofer" at Consonance. It's not just the (overall favorable) responses to my stuff that have been boosting me; I've been having fun. You hear that? Fun! I've even been taking my laptop unit to work so I can edit MIDI files while I'm installing programs.

To all of you who have helped me get that joy back, I thank you.

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[figmo.livejournal.com]

One other thing: If I stopped doing everything because it wasn't fun, I'd spend months in bed doing zippo. That's not healthy.

I tend to push myself to "press through" the "not fun" moments. I think it's a result of my being in broadcasting where I get paid to do so. The first time you go to do an on-air shift and you're not in the mood, you feel guilty. Then you have co-workers who tell you it sometimes happens to everyone. Then you come back another day and it's fun again.

I have some radio shifts where I'd rather be anywhere else, and others where there's nowhere I'd rather be. The latter ones can be sufficiently magical that I'm willing to slog through the former ones to get to another latter one.

Performing music is the same way for me. Sometimes I'm not in the mood to make or hear music, but this past week it was my sick and tired body getting in the way of my "want."

[chatworthy.livejournal.com]

Ah, the life of the professional. I went through the whole Fun Cycle - from "anywhere but here" to "why did I ever leave?" today, my first day back at the Former Position.

Pushing through

[cat-herder.livejournal.com]

That makes good sense. Sometimes you lose your mojo and you have so much invested in something that you gotta stay in it until you have that breakthrough to the other side.

I'm glad you got your mojo back.