Terror keeps me from getting rest
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figmoI'm terrified I won't be well by Sunday. My throat still hurts, my neck is still swollen, and I've nearly finished the antibiotics.
I'm terrified that the loan agent hasn't called back. He said he'd have results by "Monday or Tuesday" (of this week).
I'm terrified I'll be homeless and without a job. Nobody has called wanting to interview me for over a week.
I'm terrified the only jobs that might come my way won't pay enough to make ends meet. I told Warren about the job I applied for that would involve my writing comedy for TechTV (really!). He doesn't think it'll pay well. I'm still intrigued by it because they want someone with a background in broadcasting, high tech, and writing comedy, preferably stuff that's slightly edgy. (Does "Grandma's Training Bra" qualify?)
I'm terrified that the loan agent hasn't called back. He said he'd have results by "Monday or Tuesday" (of this week).
I'm terrified I'll be homeless and without a job. Nobody has called wanting to interview me for over a week.
I'm terrified the only jobs that might come my way won't pay enough to make ends meet. I told Warren about the job I applied for that would involve my writing comedy for TechTV (really!). He doesn't think it'll pay well. I'm still intrigued by it because they want someone with a background in broadcasting, high tech, and writing comedy, preferably stuff that's slightly edgy. (Does "Grandma's Training Bra" qualify?)
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Date: 2003-10-01 06:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-10-01 07:02 am (UTC)The loan agent is late calling back, but many people routinely promise timescales they can only deliver on if everything goes exactly right. If the person he needed to talk to stepped out of the office for a minute at exactly the wrong time, he might not be able to contact her till a day later than he thought--or maybe his fax machine hiccupped and an ophtamologist in Katmandu is looking at the reply that should have gone to your agent and wondering why anyone would send her something in English and why on Earth a pair of glasses would cost so much: are they made out of diamonds?
(hug) Job-hunting takes time, I know. I've been there and I remember this fear. I don't know what to tell you except that it will probably work out. I realize that probably has big cracks in it and you worry about falling through the cracks. But once you get well again you'll be able to take actions that make you less likely to fall through the cracks.
I think writing comedy for TechTV might be a great job, and I hope it works out for you. There won't be that many people with those qualifications, so I think you have a good chance (another hug)