A pleasant phenomenon

[figmo]

This past weekend something wonderful happened. Actually, it's been slowly happening, but this past weekend was when I noticed it.

For the first time in ages, I'm enjoying making music. It clunked me on the head when I did my "twofer" at Consonance. It's not just the (overall favorable) responses to my stuff that have been boosting me; I've been having fun. You hear that? Fun! I've even been taking my laptop unit to work so I can edit MIDI files while I'm installing programs.

To all of you who have helped me get that joy back, I thank you.

Comments

[minerva-fan.livejournal.com]

Fun. I remember having fun making music. Stopped a long while ago. Now I have fun making music in the car, singing along with The Mamas and The Papas and Alanis Morrisette. Glad you got your mojo back, though.

Deb

[figmo.livejournal.com]

It took years for the fun to come back. I was looking for something and found a post I'd made back in 1995 about how "making music [wasn't] fun any more," and I'd posted something similar to quadrivium's journal about it a few months ago.

Hang in there. It will come back. It's just anybody's guess as to what will trigger it for you.

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

YAY!

[vaurien.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad. Making music is a good thing to find fun.

[chatworthy.livejournal.com]

Fun Fun Fun...

Glad to hear it. Also: Even from the back of the room, you looked the most relaxed performing I've possibly ever seen you.

Some rules I've developed:

1. If [activity] is not fun any more, stop. Life's too short.

2. If people ask why you stopped, tell them it's not fun any more.

3. If they don't understand that explanation, tough.

Works for me.

[figmo.livejournal.com]

Relaxed? Heh. I was fatigued and trying not to fall off the stage. :-)

Thank ghu I'd spent part of my childhood trying to emulate the late Jackie Wilson's moves. The only way to dance around on the stage with a bad case of vertigo is to keep your head still, which if you noticed, I did.

[figmo.livejournal.com]

One other thing: If I stopped doing everything because it wasn't fun, I'd spend months in bed doing zippo. That's not healthy.

I tend to push myself to "press through" the "not fun" moments. I think it's a result of my being in broadcasting where I get paid to do so. The first time you go to do an on-air shift and you're not in the mood, you feel guilty. Then you have co-workers who tell you it sometimes happens to everyone. Then you come back another day and it's fun again.

I have some radio shifts where I'd rather be anywhere else, and others where there's nowhere I'd rather be. The latter ones can be sufficiently magical that I'm willing to slog through the former ones to get to another latter one.

Performing music is the same way for me. Sometimes I'm not in the mood to make or hear music, but this past week it was my sick and tired body getting in the way of my "want."

[chatworthy.livejournal.com]

Ah, the life of the professional. I went through the whole Fun Cycle - from "anywhere but here" to "why did I ever leave?" today, my first day back at the Former Position.

Pushing through

[cat-herder.livejournal.com]

That makes good sense. Sometimes you lose your mojo and you have so much invested in something that you gotta stay in it until you have that breakthrough to the other side.

I'm glad you got your mojo back.

[johno.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear the Mojo is rising again in you.

Too bad Cynthia couldn't show off her newfound Mojo either.